Getting lazy, I guess…

Man, it sure has been a while since my last post. I know that hardly anyone reads this, but I really do want to keep up with it for the future me. Time to re-double my efforts.

Well, I completed my Lent Challenge. No red meat for 40 days. (Well, actually it was that I wouldn’t make/order red meat in that time. I did eat it when someone else made it, since I didn’t want to cause trouble for others.) Actually, I didn’t have a problem with it at all. I think that I am going to try to stay away from red meat in general. Maybe keep it to like twice a month.

I am a big believer in moderation. I really am trying to eat better through moderation. I try to take smaller portions, and eat fewer calories without trying to give up on any particular thing. After all, I enjoy food too much for that, but being over weight is unhealthy. Especially for me with my family history of heart problems.

There were a few notable events that happened since my last post. I helped out Bionca with a music competition that SCC was running for middle school students. Basically I directed the kids where to sit and to not pick up their books until instructed to do so. I was there for 9 hours, and generally had a good time. I was really impressed with how well the kids did with the sight-singing, since when I was in band I remember how difficult it was to sight-read music with playing an instrument where a particular note corresponds to a finger position. It seems much more difficult to do that with singing.

Oh! I got a new car! It is a 2006 Saturn Ion, storm gray. I wasn’t really looking to get one, but on my way to work the other week, it just died while on the Turnpike. After waiting for a while, I got toed to the Saturn Dealership near where I work. Cynthia works there (she is a friend of mine, and a former co-worker). She helped us get the car. When I drove it off the lot, it only had 4 miles on it. At first, I was a bit apprehensive about getting a new car. I was worried about the cost, but now I am glad that we did it. Its nice to have a comfortable vehicle that is reliable. We still need a second though. It is tough to share a car.

The other event of note is this past weekend. I got sick last week, though it didn’t’ really hit me until Friday. That is when I got it the worst. I am still stuffed up, but I was pretty much okay on Sunday.

We were supposed to go to a gospel concert on Saturday that one of Bionca’s friends was in, but since there was no one else of her friends going, she decided against it. I was a bit relieved, since I am not a great fan of gospel music, and I am completely unfamiliar with that church.

Sunday was Easter. We went to Bionca’s mom’s church in the morning, and then breakfast after, and later to the Albin Polasek museum in Winter Park. It really was a nice day.

The was one thing that worried me over the weekend though. Bionca seems to be more interested in church as of late. That is of course not a problem in and of it self. What I worry about is how it will affect us. I am of course an atheist. As she is getting more involved with church she seems to be having more of a problem with that. It is terribly frustrating. Its not like I can change my beliefs. I really need to talk to her about this. She made several remarks about it and how it is going to cause problems. I don’t really see that it has to. I respect her beliefs, and while I do not share them, I do encourage her to explore them.

She also mentioned doing this thing for married couples. That I had to say something about. I do not mind attending church, and even being involved in activities, but I do not want to talk with a pastor or whatever about our marriage. I can see nothing come good from that. Basically I see two possible outcomes to that scenario: once they find out about my beliefs they will harass me to change my beliefs, or they will work to break up our marriage to “save” Bionca from a heathen like me. It terribly frustrating, since I do not know how I can win in any of this.

I don’t want to lose Bionca, but neither can I give up on my idea of the truth. I also can not see myself living a lie and pretending to be Christian.

If anyone reads this and has any advice, I would be glad to hear it. I’m a bit stuck.