Reconnecting with Old Friends

Yesterday was Jeremy’ and Tracy’s wedding. They are some dear friends whom I have not seen in a while. Why that is, I really can’t say. I know that it is my fault. I know that there are inconveniences that make it more difficult, not the least of which is only having one car, but nothing that I am sure that can not be overcome. The only thing I can think of is inertia of habit and insecurity.

I always worry that when I see a friend that I haven’t spoken to in a long time that it will somehow be awkward in some way. That is how things were with Traver the last time I saw him. We tried to reconnect and fill each other in with the missed details, but it just didn’t work. I think that that was mostly insecurities too. At the time I thought that it was due to all of the shared experiences that we had missed, and how our lives had diverged. I thought that our friendship was based on that experience, and since we no longer shared that, we didn’t have much left but memories that had begun to fade.

I don’t think that is the case any more. At the wedding, I met up with people that I hadn’t seen in years, and it was like there was no time in between. Sure, their job may have changed, and their hair may have been different, and they may be doing different activities, but they were the same people.

And I miss them.

I don’t know why I didn’t realize just how much I have missed my old friends. I would think that after reconnecting with Chris and Stephanie and how rewarding that experience has been for me, that I could have extrapolated this to the rest of my friends. I had a great time. I want to have more of them.

Next week, I am calling them up and doing something with them. Life is too short to let insecurities, laziness, stupidity get in the way.